I was inspired to write something whimsical and uplifting.

Then I realized no one wants that happy, in-love type of writing. They want the pieces that came from a broken soul and lost mindset.

/sigh.

I have issues maintaining happiness. It just never seems to last.

Maybe I should date someone my age, or someone older. Or maybe I just shouldn’t date anyone at all.

I’ve been crying randomly throughout today. Maybe it’s because I’m a little emotional sissy. Or maybe it’s because it’s finally hitting me. Everything from now on is going to be different, and its not until you wake up the next day after graduation to realize it. I will never see the people I love, even the people I hate, on a daily basis. I’m taking steps into a world that doesn’t hold it’s hand to me. I’m so blind. I will just miss the comfortability that came with my every day. I’ll miss the monotony. I’ll cherish these past four years for the rest of forever. High school treated me well even though I may not want to admit it. The adventures, the parties, the random hang outs, the rumors, the fights, the drama.

That’s it. It’s done.

Of course, I’ll be doing a lot of the same things in college, but its just different.

I suck when it comes to accepting change.

But I’m sure the world isn’t as unforgiving as it seems to be.

I think I should just cry instead of trying to hide it. When I try to hold back tears, it looks like someone beat my face in with a potato.

Sitting at graduation practice, baking in the sun.

I can’t help, but thank everyone and everything that helped me survive these four years.

Though our school was hell, you all helped me through it.

I’m so happy we made our mark on this place.

It’s time to say good bye.

This is it.

And I’m scared because the world is no longer going to offer me step by step instructions on how I should live.

And I’m sad because my friends will slowly become strangers as time moves forward.

And I’m happy.

Because this is it.

This is real.

This is now.

And I can’t wait any longer.