Why in the fuck have I done this to myself. I wish I had the power to just shove you all away, to mentally block you all out of any conscious thought. Everyone wants or expects something from me. I’m too nice to tell them no. It’s my fault, I know. But I can’t take this. I’m fucking tired. I’M SORRY. I’M HUMAN. I HAVE LIMITATIONS.
But you all don’t give a flying fuck.
Thats cool.
I just want you guys to be happy.
But, is it wrong for me just to ask for some help in return. Help with some of the work you have asked me to do. Or some recognition in the effort I make to please you. Or maybe, is it too much to ask you to be a kind, understanding human being that realizes that I can’t do everything you ask of me.
I wish someone would just take every burden off of my shoulders and tell me its going to be okay.
I can’t sleep well anymore. Every little thing ruins my normally calm composure.
I’m fucking weak, and I’m still taking punches.
I’m tired.
Good night.
